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ellienihonI am grateful:
1) that I got to experience being around a group of people I didn't know and feeling comfortable and enjoying myself.
2) that I can always trust certain friends to take things to the next level :D
3) to feel acknowledged and accepted by L's friends.
4) that L cares enough to ask important questions and to listen to the answers.
5) that I have made noticeable progress in the past 3 months.
6) that I had a really good therapy session today.
7) for all the opportunities I am getting to learn and grow, and the supportive environment to grow in.
8) for pats on the back.
9) for friends who show up when they say they will, and who let me know when they won't. Also, for friends who take care of themselves.
10) for my car, but also grateful that I have the resources to replace it.
11) that the concert was wonderful, and well received.
12) for Shakti Rising.
13) for my boss and my supervisor.
14) that I don't have to pay for storage, and that my relationship with my ex is good.
15) for my spirituality, and the awareness I am privileged to have of my path.
16) for appropriate boundaries with my coworkers.
17) that I got to sleep in Saturday morning!
18) for J's company on the phone as I drove home (so I didn't fall asleep).
19) for the cafeteria at work, and the girls at Shakti.
20) for spontaneity, and the willingness to reach out.
21) for Cliff, and back adjustments.
22) for surprise gifts from faraway friends.
23) for new friends and mutual attraction.
24) for L's needs getting met.
25) that J gave me a ride and we got to have a good conversation. And that he escorted me to the office party.
26) for free lunches.
27) for extra incentives to stretch and do yoga.
28) for the chance to explore a new side of myself.
29) that I have lots of people to bounce ideas off of, and I'm not expected to be perfect.
30) for AAA membership.
31) for the courage to ask for what I want/need.
32) for kittens and puppies.
33) that I could stay and keep L company.
34) for a safe place to cry and the healing power of tears.
Monday
We did errands most of the day-- shopping, picking up movie tickets, laundry, etc. I enjoyed a nice lunch at Redondo Beach Cafe with L and her son who was sick, poor thing. Then we met up with J, J, and K at a family gathering. That was fun and interesting. I was surprised at how much I enjoyed talking with the other younger women at the gathering (I often find women near my own age rather annoying). We had the opportunity to exchange gifts there. I was happy that I could give something even though I'm feeling low on resources. Then we went to see Sweeney Todd, which I thoroughly enjoyed. Then home and time spent staying up way too late with L.
Tuesday-- Xmas
Got up, wished L's household a merry christmas, and headed back home to my BFF's house. They still had some fried dough when I got there. Played some half games, watched Pirates, and fell asleep on the couch. Later in the evening, the other chosen family came over and we had dinner. I'm so grateful to be included my BFF's family. Thanks to the opportunity to relax, I was finally able to let out some of the stress that has been building up (this was before dinner). I went for a walk, cried to my mother on the phone, then went back to the house and cried more in D's arms. Thanks, D. As much as they frustrate and annoy me, I miss my family-- Mom, Dad, and brother. And I'm angry and hurt at my extended family who live nearby, but couldn't be bothered to inform me of where the gathering was or answer my phone calls. I don't believe that they are purposefully excluding me, but I'm still hurt. The amazing news is that it seems that my parents want to bail me out of the credit stuff. We'll see what strings come with this gift, but I'm inclined to grab on to any life preserver that's thrown to me.
I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas. This was not my best, but certainly not the worst. I spent the day surrounded by and receiving SMS's from those who love me. I had support and space to feel what was going on. I am truly grateful.
1) that I got to experience being around a group of people I didn't know and feeling comfortable and enjoying myself.
2) that I can always trust certain friends to take things to the next level :D
3) to feel acknowledged and accepted by L's friends.
4) that L cares enough to ask important questions and to listen to the answers.
5) that I have made noticeable progress in the past 3 months.
6) that I had a really good therapy session today.
7) for all the opportunities I am getting to learn and grow, and the supportive environment to grow in.
8) for pats on the back.
9) for friends who show up when they say they will, and who let me know when they won't. Also, for friends who take care of themselves.
10) for my car, but also grateful that I have the resources to replace it.
11) that the concert was wonderful, and well received.
12) for Shakti Rising.
13) for my boss and my supervisor.
14) that I don't have to pay for storage, and that my relationship with my ex is good.
15) for my spirituality, and the awareness I am privileged to have of my path.
16) for appropriate boundaries with my coworkers.
17) that I got to sleep in Saturday morning!
18) for J's company on the phone as I drove home (so I didn't fall asleep).
19) for the cafeteria at work, and the girls at Shakti.
20) for spontaneity, and the willingness to reach out.
21) for Cliff, and back adjustments.
22) for surprise gifts from faraway friends.
23) for new friends and mutual attraction.
24) for L's needs getting met.
25) that J gave me a ride and we got to have a good conversation. And that he escorted me to the office party.
26) for free lunches.
27) for extra incentives to stretch and do yoga.
28) for the chance to explore a new side of myself.
29) that I have lots of people to bounce ideas off of, and I'm not expected to be perfect.
30) for AAA membership.
31) for the courage to ask for what I want/need.
32) for kittens and puppies.
33) that I could stay and keep L company.
34) for a safe place to cry and the healing power of tears.
Monday
We did errands most of the day-- shopping, picking up movie tickets, laundry, etc. I enjoyed a nice lunch at Redondo Beach Cafe with L and her son who was sick, poor thing. Then we met up with J, J, and K at a family gathering. That was fun and interesting. I was surprised at how much I enjoyed talking with the other younger women at the gathering (I often find women near my own age rather annoying). We had the opportunity to exchange gifts there. I was happy that I could give something even though I'm feeling low on resources. Then we went to see Sweeney Todd, which I thoroughly enjoyed. Then home and time spent staying up way too late with L.
Tuesday-- Xmas
Got up, wished L's household a merry christmas, and headed back home to my BFF's house. They still had some fried dough when I got there. Played some half games, watched Pirates, and fell asleep on the couch. Later in the evening, the other chosen family came over and we had dinner. I'm so grateful to be included my BFF's family. Thanks to the opportunity to relax, I was finally able to let out some of the stress that has been building up (this was before dinner). I went for a walk, cried to my mother on the phone, then went back to the house and cried more in D's arms. Thanks, D. As much as they frustrate and annoy me, I miss my family-- Mom, Dad, and brother. And I'm angry and hurt at my extended family who live nearby, but couldn't be bothered to inform me of where the gathering was or answer my phone calls. I don't believe that they are purposefully excluding me, but I'm still hurt. The amazing news is that it seems that my parents want to bail me out of the credit stuff. We'll see what strings come with this gift, but I'm inclined to grab on to any life preserver that's thrown to me.
I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas. This was not my best, but certainly not the worst. I spent the day surrounded by and receiving SMS's from those who love me. I had support and space to feel what was going on. I am truly grateful.
