A Fresh Start

I am finding it interesting to work in an office with two supervisors who are both straight femmes. Clothes and shoes are a major topic of conversation at the office. These are intelligent ladies, but they really care about not wearing the same clothes in front of their dates/partners. This is just foreign to me. The chemists at my last job weren't like that, or perhaps it was just that we didn't interact quite as much. Anyway, I dress in slacks and collared shirts most days, and frequently feel like I am not much of a 'girl'.

I have had questions about gender come up more often as I become more aware. There are times when I do feel girly and enjoy dressing up and want to look pretty. Generally, I don't care as long as I stay clean-- I don't want to jump in the mud unless I have my play clothes on. But more than just the doing parts, I some times feel an energy that is more masculine. And I find that it comes up more in this environment. It's not an aggressive energy, but more protective and indulgent.

Anyway, just wanted to reflect on this a bit.