ellienihon | Better late than never, I suppose (Reply)

So, I got a call from my cousin just now. She wants to get together. I'm working, so I suggested Saturday. Either they suddenly realized they never told me where xmas was happening and didn't return my calls, or my parents decided to let their displeasure that I was left out of the loop be known. I'm mad at them, but more just hurt. I don't know whether it made yesterday harder or easier, but I certainly would have been distracted rather than walking through my feelings as I did. My cousin was totally on guard, and expected me to be crying, so I am sure that it was my parents saying something rather than them actually realizing on their own.

I do want to see my blood relations. I wish it wasn't such a hassle. I am sure that they are having a difficult holiday, what with losing the houses in the fires. My family isn't particularly emotionally functional in good times, and this has been highly stressful. I haven't seen them since the fires. I would like to approach them with compassion and love rather than the hurt and resentment that seems to be winning right now. Thank you universe that I have therapy tomorrow...