It means that I might not get an answer. Which means failure. It means that I have to be patient and allow things to unfold, and sit with the discomfort of my feelings about the problem.
Detaching from wanting an answer also means being open and surrendered to whatever the universe provides.
Interesting connection between not getting an answer = failure.
To the rest of it - yes, it also means you don't have any control. For me, that is where the fear stems from in wanting answers. If I have an answer, even if it's one I don't like, then at least I know - I can make decisions, have control. Sitting smack in the center of the void take a lot of practice and patience.
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Date: 2009-03-11 03:27 pm (UTC)and i'm in the same place - this is a huge one for me also. big hugs to you!!
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Date: 2009-03-11 05:23 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-03-11 06:54 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2009-03-11 09:18 pm (UTC)Detaching from wanting an answer also means being open and surrendered to whatever the universe provides.
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Date: 2009-03-11 09:35 pm (UTC)To the rest of it - yes, it also means you don't have any control. For me, that is where the fear stems from in wanting answers. If I have an answer, even if it's one I don't like, then at least I know - I can make decisions, have control. Sitting smack in the center of the void take a lot of practice and patience.
*big hugs*
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Date: 2009-03-14 12:46 am (UTC)and IK--i hate the void. the void sucks. can i move forward and still hate the void? do i have to like/love it?
cos i so am not liking/loving it right now.